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Friday, March 5, 2010

Watching through the windows

So ... my deadbeat friend Mark called last night.  He wanted to offer curse words support over my post yesterday.  He’s going through something very similar, and is not having nearly as easy a time (if you can call it that) as I’m having with Topher.  He called while I was helping go over what’s left in my shop, trying to get the last of it cleaned out and ready to turn back to the landlord.  I left the building, not wanting to discuss this in front of the kids.  Standing out there, in the cold, on the phone, I got a different view of everything going on.

Everyone was working when I left, but then Kimberlee showed up with Sylvia, Amber, and Walter.  I waved as they went into the shop, and then watched while I stood outside on the phone.  While Chris was talking to Kimberlee, the kids turned into kids.  Amber and Sylvia went and talked in a corner (I still don’t understand girls).  Adam kept trying to work.  Topher started playing with the little ones.  At first it was just wave and wave back … then it turned into a chasing game, with him vaulting through the internal “windows” (just square holes in the non-support walls) while the little ones had to run around the walls through the doors.  He’d hide behind the counter while they searched.  Once, I watched Topher miss his vault and go head first through a window, only to somersault up on the other side, smiling ear to ear.  Shortly after this started, Amber and Sylvia joined it.  It became a running, yelling ruckus through the empty(ish) shop.

For a whopping 10 minutes, nobody worried that the place was needing cleaning, or about the kipple on the floor, or the tools on the counter.  For 10 minutes I got a glimpse of a world, where everything is chasing and smiles and smacking your older brother or sister if you caught them off guard.  For 10 minutes I got to see faces and games that told me I hadn’t spent nearly enough time with my family in way too long.  For 10 minutes I watched and knew that this young man had, despite his problems, become one of the kids and part of the family.  They don’t play quite the same with outsiders.

For 10 minutes, everything was right

Those 10 minutes showed me … closing my shop down was the right decision.  I’ve missed out on those smiles and that running around.

I don’t know how I survived so long without them.
   
       aka: goofdad

1 comment:

Eric said...

I had a supervisory position at the company I've been at for almost nine years now. It's a place I wanted to get too since I started.

But when I go to that point, I realized I hated it. I didn't get the support from my managers over me or the respect from the people under me.

I had a crap schedule (12pm - 9pm) and they wouldn't budge or even think about manager rotation.

I missed out so much in two years in that position. Last summer I decided to step down and go to another department where my schedule can be flexible and even work from home. I get to work at 6AM and I'm home by 3pm. It's been a blessing to be there for my kids and wife during those prime time hours. While it does get frustrating working from home. I enjoy being there with the kids and having lunch with my wife when I'm there.

I totally understand about making right decisions.